I’ve been feeling a little off lately. So I decided to go to the doctor and get some stuff checked out.

Turns out I am low on B12 and I have a tad bit too much serotonin in my system.

About 3 years ago I began taking Lexapro. It helped with a lot of the PTSD symptoms I have been having. About a year and a half ago I had to up the dose of Lexapro. In doing so it relieved a lot of my PTSD. But in upping my Lexapro it came at a cost.

I have Serotonin Syndrome. I have too much serotonin in my body. It can happen if you take an SSRIs, which Lexapro is an SSRI (selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor).

So I get the lovely joy of adjusting my PTSD medicine again.

I am lowering the dosage of Lexapro to reduce the level of serotonin in my body. Because having too much serotonin can be lethal.

I wasn’t really shocked I was low in B12 as I have a sister who is low too. So I have to make my way back to the doctors again and figure out how to get more B12. You can take pills or get injections. B12 is not produced in your body so you have to get it eating things.

Another day in my life, sigh!

My oldest who is an adult asked me to take him to Seaport Village. So I said yes. He’s visiting us.

We were walking around. Passing one bridge over an area of the water. 

I saw a mama duck with ducklings. Pointed them out. As we once had ducks. 

My oldest asked if the mama duck was drowning one of her babies. I said I think she’s cleaning it. 

I walked past it but my oldest said come back. I looked into the water and saw the duckling dead. Just floating around face down. 

I will assume someone touched the duckling.

I watched 2 males attacking the mom. The other ducklings came over. The dead ducklings just sitting there. 

I watched the people who were watching the ducklings. Did they realize they just witnessed a murder? Did one of them touch the duckling. I mean why did a mama duck murdered her baby?

Basically when a mama ducks kills a duckling is because she considers an intruder. So why did this mama see this baby as an intruder?

It’s hard to grasp wildlife. 

We had ducks as one duty station.  We had 2 cayuga ducks, 3 Pekins, and 1 mallard ducks.

We got ducklings at separate times. Having to introduce them. We got the Pekins first. Then got the cayuga and mallard ducklings later. Had to introduce them. And yes the Pekins attacked them as intruders. We had to teach them they are family. It took some time.

The mallard duck mama killed her baby. Wildlife is hard. You never know what wildlife will do.

Okay honestly I have to laugh about this post.

I was sent several screen shots from friend(s). I use the pural because several people sent me the same screen shots.

Okay I’ll call her DependaSally (oh did I just use the word DEPENDA as in a military spouse who either works from home or doesn’t work, spends majority of their time online, does not take care of their kids, does not take care of their house, spends all her active duty spouse’s money, etc. Cause yes she is defined by this by many military wives here).

DependaSally stated that I hacked her husband’s Facebook. 

Immediately all my friends who saw this in so many groups sent me screen shots. And we laughed so hard. Because honestly it is HARD to hack someone’s Facebook. You would have to know personal stuff, or have a certain set of skills.

I do not have hacking skills. My friends laughed sending me those screen shots because they know once I forgot the password to my computer and my husband had to “hack”into it (thank you windows command prompt). I began to laugh. I said to one friend “do you think I could apply to NSA just by the word of DependaSally that I can do this?”

I got sent screen shots of people questioning DependaSally and why she was accusing me. And even several pointing out how hard is it hack into someone’s Facebook. And magically DependaSally deletes her post like they are magically going to disappear.

For those of who you don’t know. Facebook is a giant database. So you say a mean thing to someone, and delete it. IT DOESN’T GET DELETED. It is saved in a very big storage farm. As one friend pointing out that many of them are in Oregon.

So hey if you’ve been liked DependaSally and made some statements on Facebook, and delete them like they didn’t happy. Sorry to inform you that is wrong. I don’t just mean by screenshots. 

Apparently I have special powers that I didn’t even know I had. Go me!! 

I have recently begun to wonder about the effects of social media on our lives, well mine.

So before I began I happen to love Randy Rainbow and here is a song.

Because I thought we all needed a laugh before I jumped into this.

Sometime between 2004-2005 after Facebook had been creating I was sitting at a table eating lunch with some college friends. They were on Facebook and I had no clue what they were talking about. So they explained it to me and helped me signed up for my first account.

Through the time and over the years I have seen Facebook grow. I have seen social media grow. And with that I’ve also seen hatred grow.

When Facebook Groups were first made I am unsure if Facebook knew what power they would hold.

Michael Sellick who ran Crochet~Along Crochet Crowders group

“Considering the limitations that Facebook can offer in Group Pages, our team has made a heart wrenching decision to discontinue this group page for reasons that stem well beyond our control.

Our team wants to focus and donate our time to help crocheters by creating content in the form of blogs, pattern writing, social interaction, video content, live events, suggest patterns, and more, our team really wants to focus on the free educational component of what has made us The Crochet Crowd and discontinue ourselves from having to be a police content. I love to crochet but more importantly, I love to share skills with you all and teach. I want to focus on the next latest patterns, be excited and enjoy it with you. Not worry about coming up from my studio and seeing the next swaft of emails of complaints for me to deal with. My resources are limited.

I have been wondering lately why military spouses bully.

It’s mainly on Social Media. I’m sure we’ve all met someone that we can relate to. A keyboard warrior or whatever else you want to say.

I had thought we had left this all behind us. You know those high school days of making fun of people, bullying people, harassing people, etc.

But then I have to remind myself the ages of military spouses. So many military spouses get married young.

But honestly is age the problem? Or is it just so easy to hide behind a screen.

If you are being bullied by someone. Military spouse or anyone. Seek help.

The FBI has set up a IC3. You can go there to report cyber bullying.

Don’t let this continue.

​Hi! A little over 2 years ago I was sexually assaulted by a corpsman at a Naval Medical Hospital. Another corpsman watched and did nothing. 

This assault affected me in ways that I still face today. I had demyelination occur. Diagnosed with PTSD, which I still battle today. I have haphophobia from this assault. I’ve battled with clinophobia,  acousticophobia, and agoraphobia. I deal with the affects of this assault every day. 

Why am I posting this? Because of what happened to me I stick up for other people. I stick up for people because when I needed it the most no one stuck up for me. I will continue to do so, no matter how it makes me feel inside, because I wasn’t afforded that opportunity and will give it to others.

I was brought to tears when people posted

Hi. My name is Jordan. A little over 4 years ago I was held in a house for 48 hours and repeatedly raped and beaten. Two of my friends were upstairs and did nothing. 

This assault affected me in ways that I still face today. Aside from the physical bruises I was diagnosed with PTSD, attempted to take my own life and my previous anxiety disorder worsened. I deal with the affects of this assault every day. 

Why am I sharing this? Because what happened to me has happened to others. And no one should have to fight this battle alone.

Hi, my name is Ella. When I was 16 I was sexually  assaulted by my aunt’s husband. I thought I could trust someone I called family. I never told anyone because he threatened my life. He ended up getting caught doing the same to my cousin and was deported.

I suffer from body image issues and nightmares. I struggle to be positive about the way I look everyday. I suffer anxiety and I don’t keep my family close anymore. 

Why am I sharing this? Because I know there are others that haven’t spoken up. But they should. Had I said something, my cousin may have been spared and I would have justice. You’re not alone, speak up. Tell someone, tell me even. Im here for you and I’ll fight for you.

I cried because I wasn’t alone

I’ve had to fight to get to where I am today. That I can step outside of my house without panicking. That I can touch someone I don’t know, hold in the panic, and then when I’m alone I use hand sanitizer or wash my hands to clean myself of their touch. That I have nights where I can fall asleep, because I’m not suffocated in fear. I’m still afraid of some noises, but I’ve learned to hold it in.

Why do I hold things in? Because I have learned to manage my PTSD. Because I’ve made leaps and bounds to get to where I am today. That I have the ability to hold things in. Because I used to fall down shaking, cause it affected me a lot. 

When I step outside my home I know I’m not alone. I have the strength of others to carry me when I cannot. 

Are you using your cellphone too much while out in public?

I had to go to Ulta for something and BAM look there, a World Market next door.
So after my little trip into Ulta I went to World Market.

I was super excited. I hadn’t been inside a World Market in what seems like forever, over a year. I slowly walked around, looked at things, and grabbed a few things. Then I went back to the paper section again to decide on what to get over there.

I can hear someone talking. I zone it out. I mean it’s what I do when I’m out shopping. People talk to other people, people talk on their phones, people talk. I just go to my little happy shopping place and don’t pay attention. But then something catches my attention.

An elderly woman tells a younger woman that she’s rude to be on her cell phone and she should get off of it. The younger woman apologies, excuses herself, proceeds to get off the phone, and then apologizes again and says “I am sorry if I offended you”.

The elderly woman began to yell at the younger woman. About how she had no respect for those around her and she shouldn’t be on her cell phone. Basically began to rant and rave to this young woman that what our society has done with cellphones is so rude. She got mean and nasty.

It triggered me. I walked over there and said excuse me ma’am, talking to the elderly woman. I said look this woman apologized to you several times and apologized if she offended you. She got off the phone just for YOU you don’t need to stand there and berate her. She isn’t your daughter or family, walk away.

The elderly woman huffed and went to say something. I cut her off. I said I heard you from way over there (pointed to where I was) and I walked over here to defend this woman because you took it a step too far.

I went home and told my husband. My husband said I was very nice about it that he would have said more.

Fast forward to like a week or so later I am at Target. It was my goal to find a pair of capri pants. I stopped walking cause my cellphone went off, made sure I wasn’t in anyone’s way and pulled it out. Saw it was my husband texting me.

An older woman saw me as she almost ran into me. She apologized and said “oh you’re on your cellphone”. I apologized and said my husband just texted me asking me to do something and I am thinking of ignoring him. She laughed. She said husbands always want to be answered right away. We both laughed and walked away.

I found 2 pairs of capri jeans, and left Target happy. I finally did answer my husband in the car. Oh and I do use my cellphone in Target due to their Cartwheel app.

So here is my question

Is it okay to use your cellphone while out in public at a shopping place. Or is it rude?

I’ve read up on Social Etiquette about cell phones on several sites. What I’ve learned is about 92% of adults in the USA have cell phones. There are places that you shouldn’t use a cell phone, like during church services. But what I read was generally if you are out in public it’s okay. I couldn’t find anything about shopping. But I did find out that if you’re walking on a sidewalk talking on your cellphone it might be rude, might not a 50/50 thing.

So what are you opinions? I’ve happily talked to my sons before while shopping and nothing has happened.

 

Please ask for help