In a blink of an eye things can change. One minute things can seem fine and the next they aren’t. That is life.
One thing I am grateful for is the support of my husband. That after the “event” he took care of me. Even before he knew what happened he knew something had happened. He held onto me during my weakest moments and listened when I finally explained. It was hard. Not just for me but for him.
Due to the shock to my system my body couldn’t handle it. As I previously stated I shook, I had tremors. My whole entire body.
It was hard for me to walk. My husband would walk behind me with his arms under mine. If I needed his support all I had to do was lean back. He would whisper in my ear that things would be alright. He would remind me he was there.
I guess I could best describe it as Parkinson’s. My head would shake, my arms would shake, my legs… like I said my whole body. I couldn’t control it. If I tried to fight it I would be in so much pain. It got to the point my speech was being effected. I had troubles talking.
I was told I had damage to my myelin and it would take some time to heal. Patience… everything I’m not.
I went on medications. Taking medicine every so many hours just to control the tremors.
The only place I felt safe was at home. Whenever I went out people would stare. It was truly hard for me.
But the one person I had, the one person who never left, my loving husband. Whenever I needed him, he was there. He would hold my hand, stroke my hair, comfort me, love me… be my all.
If I didn’t have support I don’t know where I would be. I had several people step forward and promise me I could count on them. Those people who I don’t want to list THANK YOU for your support. I needed a system, a network, a safe place.
I had to struggle to begin to put my life back together. I had to struggle to feel safe.
And without the support of those who cared for me I wouldn’t have been able to do it.
So from the bottom of my heart THANKS!