I had several blog posts that were scheduled. But some how they never went out.

Life being Life.

Sometimes life happens. So those blog posts will come up soon.

My PTSD medicine was changed a few months ago. I was wanting to try a different medicine to see if it could better control my tremors. Sadly that wasn’t the case.

I have agoraphobia. Agoraphobia can affect people in different ways. My agoraphobia began shortly after I was diagnosed with PTSD. With my PTSD I wanted a safe place. And so my agoraphobia began. I wasn’t diagnosed with agoraphobia for several months. Because some of the symptoms match PTSD.

I also have OCD, obsessive compulsive disorder. I was CLINICALLY diagnosed with it early in life. I’m not talking about I just have to have things in a certain order. Where people claim to have OCD because they like things a certain way. No that isn’t OCD.

I grew up with OCD. I am lucky and can manage it without medicine. It took a lot of years to learn to live with it, and not fight against it. But I will say my PTSD medicine does help with my OCD. Which is strange because I miss my OCD.

I still do things that are connected with my OCD. I’ve recently noticed that I won’t do something that is classified as a compulsion. I have rituals and habits that are compulsions. Not all rituals and habits are compulsions. This is something I can’t just say, okay one day I won’t do it. It’s just something that I’ve allowed not to ruin my life. As I stated before I’ve learned to live with it.

I was recently diagnosed with TMJ/TMD. I am getting injections in my jaw and acupuncture. These things help with the pain. A few points of acupuncture help with my arthritis. So I can eat. I’ve lost 15lbs. The pain to open my jaw is so great that I don’t eat.

Life is life.

You gotta learn to live with what you were given.